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Reading: A lot of T Kingfisher; having finished the Saint of Steel books I went back to her earlier work in the same universe and hoovered up Swordheart and the Clockwork Boys duology, both of which I enjoyed a lot, although her romance formula of "savvy smart woman, tortured sword-wielding man who thinks he's not good enough" gets a bit stale after the umpteenth repetition. (At least one of the Saint of Steel books is m/m, but there's still a savvy smart skinny man and a tortured sword-wielding muscular man who thinks he's not good enough).) I also read The Hollow Places, which totally fucked me up and reminded me why I don't normally read horror (but which was good enough that I still made myself finish it, although I refused to read it after 9pm).
Since then I've devoured A Glimmer of Silver by [personal profile] juliet - a thoughtful and moreish novella about humans dwelling on an ecoplanet with a sentient Ocean which wants something different than the official liaisons have been claiming it does. It's got a charmingly flawed protagonist who comes through satisfyingly in the end, and some tantalising worldbuilding which I'd love to see more of. For a short book it packs in some big themes, exploring the tension between social and individual autonomy versus harmony with nature, and the question of when and how it's morally acceptable to eat animals. Very enjoyable.

I've just started A Deadly Education by Naomi Novik and am finding it extremely entertaining, especially El's narrative voice. She is just so Done.

Watching: I finished Getting Curious with Jonathan van Ness (loved it, delightful, adore them even more now), blasted through season 2 of Bridgerton (highly aesthetic trash which I found very watchable despite the terrible writing and bizarre lack of queerness), considered watching something a bit more substantial (I'm halfway through episode 2 of Picard but am much more in the mood for mindless fluff at the moment) so ended up on Queer Eye: Germany. Looove!

Initial impression: way more grungy, alternative and real than the high-glamour US version. The Fab Fünf are more heavily pierced and tattooed, especially David Jakobs, who I am obsessed with - she deserves every bit of stardom that has come JVN's way and I hope she gets it. Ayan, Leni and Alyosha are immediately warm and charming. Jan-Henrik I was slower to warm up to - there's still something a bit stilted and tense about him in contrast to the relaxed warmth of the others - but he does produce the occasional self-deprecating joke, and his relationships with the heros are just as good as everyone else's. J-H may be less charismatic than Tan France, but he's also more humble, interested in helping each individual develop their own aesthetic and giving it a final polish, rather than making choices for them. The format is improved too: Aljosha is Health rather than just food and wine, and Leni is Life rather than Culture, and her choices of activities are kind, gentle, empathetic and creative. The German heros all seemed less comfortable being on TV and less emotionally demonstrative than their US counterparts, so there's less Dramah, but it feels more real. I did a big old cry during episode four, and if they make more, I will watch it.

Writing: I'm off work on plague leave, so no progress on The Big Non-Fiction Book, but I have tentatively started a novella that's been churning around on the back burner for a few years. I've managed an average of 400 words a day three days running, but only by writing extra one day and then skipping the next. I did some planning, started the story, felt really happy, then came back to it this morning, wrote more, started second-guessing some of my choices and feel like I'm probably going to throw away everything I've written so far and start again. It's all part of the process! Thank you to Covid I guess for giving me a work-free week and the space to write something other than fic. According to my master spreadsheet I've written 57k words of fiction over the last two years, almost all of it fanfic or original erotica, so it feels good to finally break the seal on starting an original project that's a bit more ambitious.

Growing: The beans are poking their heads up and seem to be doing well indoors. The rest of the seed trays remain quiet, so either it's been too cold for them to germinate or they're biding their time. I've been potting up various things I brought home from the garden center - house plants and succulents which were Baby and therefore cheap, and immediately needed more space, got done a couple of weeks ago, and the rest got neglected until today. The rocket, pak choi and mint were all suffering from not having enough space, and may not make it, but I repotted them all today along with the parsley, which was doing fine. We'll see what happens. It was a push energy-wise - I hope I didn't overdo it, but all those plants would have died if I didn't, so I made my choices. 

Cooking: Really basic stuff due to low energy levels. Omelettes. Vegan meat substitute with rice and steamed veg. Some poached salmon fillets. A baked polenta thing. Oh, I made a large batch of soy mince thing with puy lentils, mushrooms, carrots, onions, leeks and pinto beans. It was meant to be sort of bolognesey, but was a bit weird without the tomatoes. Still tasty though.

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I've now watched all three seasons, and I have Opinions.

OK, so there are lots of reasons I am going to keep obsessively watching it spoilers )

Reasons why I'm not angry, just disappointed moar spoilers )

In conclusion: amazing characters and world-building, with so much promise for inspiring storytelling, but lacklustre delivery. Too many plot holes, too many bad decisions, and too much emphasis on oversimplified morality, individual pew-pew heroism, and frankly too many life or death crises and traumas. Give me a season of Discovery where they aren't constantly fighting for their lives, they can get a break, get counselling, attend a concert, and have some episodes about culture and philosophy where we get cute domestic scenes with the characters and no-one cries.

Yeah, basically I want TNG only with a cast of women, queers and people of colour. I'll keep hoping.

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I'm halfway through S A Chakraborty's Daevabad trilogy - City of Brass, Kingdom of Copper and Empire of Gold - and I keep on changing my mind about whether to bother finishing it.

It's a sprawling Middle Eastern epic about djinn and magic and myth and city politics and civil war. There are three major factions who all hate each other - two pureblood djinn factions, the Daevas and Gezeri, each of whom think the other are evil and only they deserve to rule, and a mixed race oppressed minority, the shafit, who are regularly beat on by both the djinn factions and occasionally fight back. mild spoilers, mention of violence against and death of children ) I stopped reading it once already, but then I went back to it, and I still want to know what happens next.

Because the world-building is rich and detailed and vivid, the court politics and intrigues are convincingly chilling and complex and difficult to navigate, the backdrop of myth and history that's gradually revealed is compelling, and many of the characters are fun to spend time with - I love Ali, Nahri, Jamshid, Zaynab, and even Muntadhir, for all his flaws. It's lovely to read a book populated exclusively by people of colour, many of them Muslim and dark skinned. It has canonically queer main characters, moral ambiguity, and genuinely tense, difficult situations where there's no easy answers and every action has a million unwanted consequences.

So for now, I'm keeping on reading it - but it's still touch and go whether I'll make it to the end.
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Aaaaahhhjhdksbsiskk this is SO GOOD. It's the sort of genre I didn't think I liked - I'm not normally into gothic horror - but it's so good on so many levels. Okay so it's a space opera with lesbian necromancers and skeletons, nice. BUT it is SO MUCH MORE than that.

It's the darkest angst I've read in years leavened by perfect potty-mouthed one liners. It's witty, sarcastic millennials plunged into high fantasy political drama. The narrative voice is totally original. The creepy creepy omg what happened backstory is SO CREEPY that even when you find out, you are EVEN MORE CREEPED OUT than when you were guessing the worst. It's the most compelling, convincing, trauma-bonded enemies-to-friends romance I've ever read, complete with being outsiders together, developing genuine respect for each other, discovering shared values, and ANGST, DID I MENTION THE ANGST. Through mutual animosity and rejections not once did I ever get bored of the hostilities between the two main characters and wish they would hurry up and sort it out. 

That because this book moves fast. A lot happens. It has new plot and twists and turns every other page. You fall in love with characters and then terrible things happen. You find out crucial new information about people which totally changes your perspective. You spend pretty much the whole book not knowing who you can trust, and wondering if core protagonists are actually baddies. It's a closed door murder mystery, embedded in a magical/martial arts trial, embedded in a courtly political drama, embedded in high gothic fantasy, embedded in a dark far-future sci-fi. The setting and culture are more horrible than you realise, and simultaneously more humane. 

The body horror is unrelenting, but also silly and videogamey enough to never be upsetting. The gut punch comes from the relationships. 

The magical system is a gleeful mashup of everything death related which is weirdly compelling, and which made necromancy interesting to me for basically the first time ever. Morgues! Medical science! Bone art! Soul eating!

This book is so silly it would be fluff if it wasn't so heart-rendingly poignant, and so angsty it would be depressing if it wasn't so brilliantly funny. It's totally driven by the characters, with a massive ensemble cast of vividly realised nobles, anchored by a sympathetic narrator and an addictive love/hate relationship. 

I can't stop thinking about these characters and am so sad that the second book isn't out yet!
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4/5. Simple and enjoyable young adult fantasy about a twelve year old minor mage with a sarcastic armadillo familiar, who gets sent on a quest by the adults of his village to fetch the rains from the Cloud Herders in the mountains. It'ss a fairly straightforward linear quest fantasy.

I liked that the protagonist is incredibly underprepared, rather than being the Talented Chosen One, and that he survives through luck, grit, and creatively using the basic skills at his disposal rather than trying to be flash. I also liked that a kid being chucked out by his community and expected to Be A Wizard is dealt with as a suitably traumatic and problematic event.

The peril in this is nicely creepy and also kind of realistic, with memorable scenes of running away and hiding in damp bushes with twigs poking his ear, the armadillo's communication limits when trying to negotiate with pigs, and being kidnapped by amusingly practical bandits. A Human Travel Companion shows up halfway through, which is an interesting pacing choice, and is more irritating than most.

This isn't terribly ambitious and is a bit formulaic in places. What I liked most about it is that it's funny. Genuinely witty books are rare and precious, and this one made me chuckle.
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4/5. Whoa, this is wild. I picked it up in Housman's Radical Booksellers in Kings Cross, where a staff note recommended it as "the most bonkers thing I've ever read".

In a near future dystopic Santo Domingo, acid rain falls on dead seas, after a chemical spill and a tsunami has destroyed all marine life in the bay. Acilde Figueroa has escaped her life as a rent boy, and now finds herself at the heart of a SanterĂ­a prophecy. With the help of a sacred (and now immensely valuable) anemone, she has been chosen to travel back in time and stop the seas from dying. Her price: the injection which will complete her transition into the man she's always known herself to be.

In the early 2000s, deadbeat visual artist Argenis Luna works as a fake psychic for a phone line, but he can't even keep that terrible job. Argenis is a talented painter, and a malevolent son of a bitch who suppresses his unacknowledged queerness with violent homophobic and misogynistic thoughts.

As the now-male Acilde travels back in time, he encounters Argenis and exploits his artistic talent to raise funds for his marine preservation project. After getting stung by the same anemone, Argenis too travels back in time, and struggles to maintain a double life as both modern artist and 17th century buccaneer along the same coastline.

Argenis and Acilde's lives intertwine in multiple timelines, as Argenis works to create art and hang onto his sanity in the face of 17th century violence and 21st century expectations, and Acilde finds his sacred conservation mission challenged by the temptations of 21st century wealth and comfort.

This packs a lot into a slim volume, with restless punk prose and vivid characterisation and details. It's full of unexpected twists and turns. The different timelines are shown rather than told, and it took me a while to get to grips with who was who and what was happening when. I had to flick back and forth a lot to update my picture of events as I started to figure out what was going on.

I love the strong beginning, with Acilde's backstory and transformation. Argenis' entry into the story too is compelling, and I wanted to read more of him doing tarot readings in a dingy office and convincing sad white women that he can see their future. Despite his many failings, I found myself rooting for him, cheering him on to achieve artistic success and come to terms with his sexuality. But Argenis' future - including in the past - is full of disappointments.

I wanted a more optimistic ending, although I understand why I didn't get one. I found the end of Acilde's story a bit unconvincing - I felt like his character development was a bit thin and I didn't understand why he made the decisions he did. I'd have liked to see the sacred SanterĂ­a prophecy threat wrapped up. But despite an anticlimactic ending, there's a lot to like here. The artistic promise of the early chapters is enticing, and I'm already tempted to revisit them. This is a book that provokes us to do better than its self-indulgent characters, artistically and politically, with the threat of what awaits us if we don't.
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5/5. An extraordinary first novel. I've never read anything like this before. It made me flinch, shout, and laugh in shock and awe. It comes with a hefty load of content warnings and is utterly compelling.

Ada is a Nigerian girl possessed before she was born by a collective of malicious little gods from the other side. Daughter of python goddess Ala, the earth, from whose mouth all freshwater flows, Ada's childhood is cursed with these amoral spirit selves who enjoy causing pain and thirst after blood.

Spoilers and content warnings )

This skillfully tells three stories at the same time: the story of a traumatised kid who develops Divided Identity Disorder, and suffers decades of poor mental health before finally finding healing. It's also a queer and trans coming out story. And it's a spiritual myth rooted in Igbo cosmology, of how to survive embodiment when you're a god.

The story is told out of sequence, with multiple narrative voices - Ada's going from hesitant and oblique to confident and self-possessed, Asughara blistering throughout, but with the feeling of an unreliable narrator due to her skewed perspective.

This book is bold and breathtakingly original. To my surprise, despite the challenging content I didn't find it triggering - Ada's story has such narrative weight, and the painful parts make so much sense in context, that I experienced it as a rich and satisfying work of art rather than as anything relevant to my own experience. An intense ride, but a rewarding one.
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5/5. I stayed up til 11.30pm finishing it while E slept beside me. A haunting, thoughtful, beautiful and profoundly moving novella. Four human astronauts go on a decade long mission to a red dwarf solar system to survey its four habitable planets. While they are traveling between them at half the speed of light, enzyme patches transform their bodies to adapt them to each new environment.

This is breathtaking. It's an ode to the joy and wonder of exploration and scientific discovery. It's glorious, imaginative glimpses into the extraordinary beauty of alien flora and fauna. It's about how we enter new spaces, how much space we take up, how we harm and are harmed. It's about the impossibility of seeing more than a tiny slice of the new life we encounter, and the arrogance and humility of thinking that mere glimpse has meaning. It's a rousing invitation to sort our shit out and get into space. It's an eerie, mournful glimpse into a dark period of Earth's future.

Oh, and it's a queer high functioning polycule consisting of trans, ace and neurodiverse characters, at least two of whom are (I think) of colour. Yay, queers in space! But the sex positivity and queerness is so background compared to the main thrust of the story, it barely gets a mention in passing.

I couldn't put it down. It's left my mind and heart ringing. Stunning.
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Studio Ghibli films are on Netflix! I'd never heard of this one. It appealed to us because a) it was only 1 hr 15 and we wanted something that fit in before baby bedtime and b) cats. In the end we watched half one night and the rest the next.

Schoolgirl Haru is clumsy and distractable and always late for things. Oh, the poignancy of undiagnosed ADHD! She stops a cat from being run over one day by scooping it out from in front of a lorry with her lacrosse stick, in a hilarious satirical slow motion action sequence. The cat turns out to be the Prince of Cats, who thanks her graciously and promises rewards. Poor Haru is very confused. Her mum tells her she claimed to talk to cats as a little girl, and we get a flashback to a time Haru helped a stray kitten.

Strange, unhelpful, ridiculous gifts start appearing, like 100 lacrosse sticks and a locker full of live mice. Dozens of cats start following her around. That night a creepy cat parade shows up outside her house with great pomp and solemnity, and the Cat King - a sleazebag voiced by Tim Curry - thanks her personally.

The Cat King is determined to give her to his son is marriage as a reward for her good deed. She doesn't want to marry a cat! She finds her way to the Cat Bureau, where rogue non-Kingdom creatures become her allies. These include Muta, an enormous fat white bastard of a cat, Toto, the soul of a corvid statue, and the Baron Humbert von Gikkingen, the soul of a figurine of a dapper cat with a waistcoat, top hat and cane who is very recognisably voiced by Cary Elwes.

Haru is kidnapped and swept off to the cat kingdom, where her friends have to help her escape the clutches of the Mad Cat King before she turns into a cat and is forced to marry the prince. The stray kitten she helped as a child has grown up and become a significant character.

This is totally bonkers, funny from start to finish, and although the imperial cats are pretty creepy, the whole film is much lighter and fluffier than other Ghiblis. There's a bit of violence when the King throws his weight around, but it manages to be funny by poking fun at authoritarian rule.

The whole film is a delicious tension between innocent and knowing. It's u-rated, but Haru spending half the film with cat ears and a tail is a definite nod to cat girl fetish, and the threat posed by the sleazy, overbearing King is definitely scarier when you know what it represents. It's pleasantly ironic that the terrible fate Haru is trying to escape is that of becoming cat royalty and being pampered in luxury. She doesn't end up finding true love, but self-determination. This film is part Labyrinth, part Princess Bride and part CATS, silly and creepy in equal parts, and I enjoyed it tremendously.
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Last night a friend and I curled up on the sofa to watch a film. I'd had the songs from The Little Mermaid stuck in my head in the shower that morning, so that was my first suggestion, but when we opened Netflix I was reminded that there was this new live action/CGI film out in a similar Disneyish vein. I heard of it via [personal profile] mr_magicfingers, who works in the film industry and was on the SFXVFX team for Mowgli. I try to watch stuff he's been involved in, if only for the pleasure of seeing his name in the credits :)

So, Mowgli: a straight-to-Netflix original with a big CGI budget. It's enjoyable fluff and beautiful eye candy. I could happily watch those sweeping shots through the jungle for hours, and the background of the closing credit sequence would make a stunning psychedelic video projection (or even desktop screensaver). The score was stunning. Rohan Chand as Mowgli was watchable and convincingly energetic (the enthusiastic running around, and the scene where he's learning to leap and catch a branch and stubbornly hurls himself across the gap time after time, not caring that he keeps landing on his face, reminded me of a certain 13 year old boy I know). And the voice performances were amazing, from a stellar cast including Andy Serkis as a gruffly cockney Baloo (Serkis was also the director), Cate Blanchett as a scary and mystical Kaa, Christian Bale as a wonderfully sympathetic Bagheera, and Benedict Cumberbatch growly and resonant as Shere Khan. I could listen to his voice all day, although if I had to close my eyes I'm not sure I could have told the difference between Shere Khan and Smaug.

It was also very heckleable, with enough silly moments and narrative inconsistencies to result in a fair amount of shouting at the screen.

Spoilers )

In summary: perfect film for talking over with a friend because you pretty much know the story already, nicely tense without being too scary (although the bloody bits were convincingly brutal), visually gorgeous fairytale. Don't expect it to make perfect sense, and you won't be disappointed.

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