It's a bit of a revelation, isn't it? I think it's something I'm still working on - I mean, writing a novel sort of has a goal in mind, even if it's very lightly held.

I had a conversation along these lines with my supervisor recently, who was advocating doing colouring or some such on my fatigue days just to get myself out of passive consumer brain and into active brain. I was like, "if I'm well enough to do Art I'm well enough to work!" She said, "I think you misunderstand me; I'm not talking about something you'd show anyone, just activity to get you out of the mindless watching Netflix all day rut." I was all, do a thing that I wouldn't show anyone?! Error: does not compute.